When the nest goes quiet.

After my very first post, I lost myself. Not in the deep sense, but in the swirl of *mothering*. I kept reminding myself I would come back and post daily, but I never did. And you know when you avoid something for so long that the thought of it comes with guilt? That’s how I felt. When I remembered my blog, my passion, and the goals I had set, I felt like I was failing myself. I was so disappointed in my lackluster attitude that I shoved the guilty thought of leaving my blog dormant somewhere my mind couldn’t reach.

And then one day, I had a vulnerable experience. I wanted to vent — not just vent, but to share with my community. My blog came to mind, my online diary! Baby was asleep and I had a rare window of ‘me time.’ I poured my whole heart out in words… only to realize I couldn’t upload a picture or publish.

I tried everything but nothing worked. I typed in my blog name, and the server wouldn’t open. Something was wrong. I stared at the blank screen and wondered if my blog was punishing me for abandonment (the same way DuoLingo sends me daily reminders of how miserable it is without me).

For weeks, I tried to sort the problem but kept meeting nothing.

After what seemed like forever — more than a month — I was finally able to connect with the right people. It turns out there had been a technical glitch, and the fault wasn’t mine.

Safe to say, WE ARE BACK, NESTLINGS!!

My lesson learned? The disappearance of my blog reminded me of how much this space means to me. I see it clearly now. And while consistency has never really been a friend of mine (dare I say, sometimes it feels like an enemy to the creative mind)… here I am. One word at a time. Crawling back into the hearts of my Nestlings.

How are you guys? For me, motherhood is steadily handing me lessons, and this is one of them.

Stay tuned for more conversations — from my heart to yours.

With love,

Nenye’s Nest.